This is the diary of a closeted gay man. I started the blog when I was a teen. Here, I will post some of my life experiences living as a closeted gay teen. I'm a 22 year old college graduate who was born and raised in Texas. Names and locations in my stories will be changed for privacy and so that I don't get "outed." Hope you enjoy!
Question:So i am Bi and i guess you could say i am half closeted half out. Over 20-30 people know. Whatever thats not the point! Haha anyways, there is another guy that is very attracted to me and i was to for a while. We kissed and then i realized, i felt no connection towards him. He is still trying to get to me but i really cant feel anything with him. Do you have any advice? - Anonymous
He’s not your type, so go on to the next one. Just because a gay guy is in the same room as you doesn’t mean you have to fall in love and marry him… There a ton of gay men in this world and I guarantee that when you find the right gay man for you, you will know it. Don’t let friends pressure you to date their “other gay friend” because you are letting others choose for you. You decide who you want to date, who you want to kiss and who you want to FUCK :) hahaha
Question:Hey, I'm a 17 boy from Brazil and I never came out to my family/friends, although my closet is becoming a little bit claustrophobic. Firstly, I just wanted to say that your blog is amazing! Now I'll tell you my story: recently I met a boy from Belgium in Internet. He is the niciest, cutest person I've ever met in my whole life. We understand each other, share a lot of thoughts and now I'm madly in love with him! I just don't know what to do anymore, I just want to be in his arms... - Anonymous
Thanks for the compliments! Online relationships are the toughest. I had an online relationship with someone from Canada for over a year and I was madly in love. Unfortunately the reality is that you are thousands of miles away from the person you love. I wouldn’t recommend anyone to do a long distance online relationship although I do have to say that it helped me a lot while I was still figuring out who I was as a gay man during the time I was in the online relationship. Best of luck!
Question:So I recently came out to my best friend and he was great about it and we were hanging out and he started hinting about experimenting with me. We talked about what the downside would be but we both said we are too close to let it ruin our friendship so we fucked. I've always kinda had feelings for him but after we fucked they intensified. He is still figuring out his sexuality. He left for a trip today (we fucked last night) and its eating me up. I wanna text him but not sound desperate. Help :( - Anonymous
Seems like you definelty fell for him…. That to me is one of the worst things about being gay. I tend to fall for many guys that I become really close to. My best recommendation is that you find someone else who you can fall in love with if you don’t want a friendship to go to ruin. Go out dating with other guys until you stop having feelings for your friend.. It’s hard and it takes time but you can do it… I’ve done it…
Question:Omg my fav story was when you first touched a guys penis it was my absolute favorite it reminds me of my self even tho I've never touched a guys penis i feel like It will happen like it happened to you thx you for posting all these stories they really inspire me I'm in the closet too thank you :* - Anonymous
Question:Hi! I'm 18, I've just create a Tumblr account only to write this and say thank you for writing about this! Last year I read most of your replies and posts and I've seen we are very similar in our thinking and share the encouragement to help other people (especially in this topics). That is why reading all of this made me feel more comfortable about myself as I knew there was always someone who believe in the same things as me. Many of my decisions are now clear and I'm really happy. Thank you :D - Anonymous
Thanks for that! I dont post anymore mostly cuz it’s very time consuming. But I’m glad someone out there thinks the same as I do!
Question:Hey, how would you recommend that closeted gay men in college should go about finding other closeted or open gay men to hook up with without having to out yourself or worry about others outing you? thanks - Anonymous
I was lucky to have a guy find me. There’s sites where people can hook up but I would refrain from going to them because they are plagued with horny people who are just looking for one thing and one thing only… I’d say just look for guys around you or if you really want to try the sites then proceed with caution
Question:hello first I love ur blog ur amazing for sharing ur story so this isn't really a question I kinda need ur advice im not gay but I live in a world where I cant be who I want to and I don't think I can ever come out and tell my friends and family anything. how do u suggest I get over my fear and just come out also I think I may be bi im not sure I know I like girls and guy but I don't think id get with a girl can u give me any wors of wisdom - Anonymous
It’s tough, I’ll be honest. But first you have to embrace it yourself before you start telling others. You gotta be confident in your sexuality. Coming out is sometimes difficult for some and relatively easy for others. In my case, it was extremely difficult. I remember telling some of my friends and every time I’d be nervously shaking when I was telling them. But right after I’d tell them, a huge sense of relief filled me and everything was great. It takes a lot of courage to come out but once you do, you won’t regret it. And there is the chance that some of your friends will not be happy but guess what, you don’t need those people in your life. There’s millions of people in this world and you gotta surround yourself with people that will support you and not bring you down.
Question:Hey, I'm just starting my freshmen year in college and in the last month I've started to realize that I am actually gay, or bisexual or whatever it is that I am. I have a crush on someone else who I believe is closeted as well and I dont know how to approach him or how to feel comfortable with approaching him and I was wondering if you had any advice on a situation of the sort. - Anonymous
I’ve definitely been in this situation. I would caution you though. Sometimes, we think other people are also gay/bi but because we want them to be. I remember having a crush on a guy and believing he was gay too. I would look at all the reasons why I think he’s gay. But he wasn’t, and when I found out I was heartbroken. So caution with your approach but follow your heart :)